I write these words in my mind as you run your fingers through my hair. Every stroke calms me. That’s what you do, you calm me and my inner demons. You silence them with your gentleness and your warmth. Your presence gives me peace, which was the only thing I desperately needed a few months back. You came into my life unexpectedly. I...
I have the memories stored in my brain like a time capsule that won’t ever turn off. But, little by little and day by day, I’m still forgetting what it felt like. I’m forgetting the sensations, the emotions, the knocking on my heart. I’m forgetting the little things that used to make me glow. I’m forgetting the way my hands felt safe in...
It has been quite awhile, just a short update, It took me a very long time for me to get to this place. This feeling of being ok without somebody beside me. This feeling of actually loving life when i'm not in a committed relationship. This feeling of being ok with me just being me. I love being single. I love the fact...
All your friends have been telling you forever: “he’s not worth it”, “you deserve better than him”, “he’s a flirt” but you ignored all of it. Why? Because you loved him, you loved the idea of him, you loved the attention he gives you. You don’t see his flaws because even that is beautiful to you. You can give all the love you...
You weren’t an asshole and that was the problem.See, before I met you, I was used to the unhealthy, back-and-forth relationships that I was a part of for years. I thought it was normal when your boyfriend would forget your birthday or to be called a cunt when he didn’t get his way. So when I met you, a.k.a., Mr. I’mAGreatGuyAndGenuinelyCareAboutYou…I was thrown off....
I want you to imagine this: a girl sitting on her bedroom floor, dry-heaving, her body convulsing with each failed attempt at silencing the sobs, banging her fists onto the ground as she tried to make sense of it all. Now, I want you imagine my face because that girl was me, and I was never good enough for you. I was constantly...
I never thought it would be you. I never thought I would be staying up until 3 in the morning crying over someone I thought would be with me in the long run. Out of all of the people in my life, I never expected you to be the one to destroy me. I felt so close to you, I opened up my...
I haven’t seen or heard from you in months but I know you’re okay.You’ve always been the strongest of the two of us. I just wish I could say I’m okay without you too.My head was throbbing, bottle loosely held in my trembling hand. My hair was a knotted mess, cheeks blackened with makeup. My breathing was erratic, uneven, though it’d calmed down...